I'm Holding On...

This weeks writing prompt from Ellen is I'm holding on. When I first saw it on Sunday November 2, I thought of the sermon I heard that morning of letting go of our worries and burdens. We all treasure something and our hearts follow that treasure.  As we prayed, we were directed to open our hands and let go. I let go of my worries of Sam.

See I knew that morning there was a check up coming the next day. I was wondering  worrying (you see there is a whole lot of words to make it sound better, but it is still worry) what would happen at this appointment. Would I walk out bombarded again with multiple appointments to follow up on? Or just a see you in 6 months? I knew as I opened my hands that morning I was going to need to repeat this exercise again many times over.

Well the appointment was the bombarded one. Sam's tibia has a lesion that has grown to the point of being a fracture risk. How should it be reinforced?  Sam's gait has not improved. In fact his ankles are turning in and his right foot is turning out at the same time. I saw these things before hand. Well not the bone lesion, that took an x ray to see. Sam's developmental adaptive PE teacher saw the gait issues too.

After much discussion we left with a plan. Sam has been modeled for UCB orthotics that he will get in two weeks. After giving him a few weeks to get used to them, he will visit the Gillette's Gait Lab. Just after the holidays we will meet with our doctor again, go over the information from the gait lab and decide what to do. Surgery is likely. That tibia broke almost 4 years ago. We do not want it to happen again.

So what am I holding on to?

In that sermon mentioned earlier, some questions were asked. What do you seek first or treasure? How do you trust His care? Treasure Him.

I Peter 5:7 "casting all your care upon Him for He cares for you."

Philippians 4:6,7 "Be careful for nothing, but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." The italics are mine because God understands what the doctors do not.

I am trying to open my hands and let go of my worry so I can hold on to Jesus.